Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Heart of the Matter
This song rings true for me now, not because of the guy I just dated, but because of HK. I'm learning to live without him now, really, and I miss him sometimes. And (well now I'm just basically cutting & pasting but...) I've been trying to figure out what it is, and I think it's about forgiveness.
The three most important words in the English language--do you know what it is?
"I forgive you."
I'm just trying to figure out how to mean it. And I think I just want to hear those words back, too. You keep carrying that anger, it'll eat you up inside. That said, my will is weak, and my thoughts seem to scatter all the time...
It's going to take time. And it means I have to do it on my own. And now I don't have the new guy, I feel like I'm really on my own. And I don't have a lot of other stuff either (will explain later). And I think that's the only way to do it. Sigh... Can I be done with growing up now?
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Oh, Aivy. Sometimes I really miss hanging out with you. You've got such a good heart. ♥
A bit of advice from someone who's been married for almost 8 (!!!) years:
Before I started dating Brett, I was single for two years. I think the independence and self-confidence I gained during that time period have been hugely beneficial to our marriage. I kind of think it's important to learn to enjoy living with yourself before you expect someone else to do it too.
Also, I have to admit that it was reeeally nice to be able to come, go, and watch horrible Disney movies whenever I pleased. Single life definitely has its pluses. Make the most of it now, because one day it will be gone. :)
thanks cat jackson :)
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