2006

Only 2 months left of 2006, thank the Lord. This year has sucked. Many fantastic things happened, mind you, to many people and places and organizations and situations--including those that involve me both directly and indirectly---but I still welcome 2007 with enormous enthusiasm, if only because it will be something new. No, I did not like 2006.

Self-analysis: I wanted too many things I didn't have, making me bitter and possibly Scrooge-like. Maybe it's not 2006 I dislike, but who I have been so far during this year.

Does wanting what one doesn't have make that person unhappy?

I don't know.

Am I unhappy?



I wouldn't say unhappy, that's a pretty strong word. I am definitely not happy. And at the end of the day, I think: well, who cares if I'm not happy? It's probably a phase anyway (my seratonin levels are usually off the charts) and at least it makes me a better writer (it's true. Can't write for crap when I'm having a great day). I don't need to be happy all the time, I am not down in the dumps, I'm just... not happy. I want things I don't have, many things, very much, and one of them is to not feel this way anymore. It's a phase, possibly maybe, and it's a long one.

I have to let go to my old ways and try something new.